gamma-aminobutyric acid or GABA
worry is another love, to worry is to love
sweet talismans of take care / be well
not enough to guard against
metal sharpened teeth biting down
on inner cheeks, salted salivary
shame flowing down through lips.
my mother’s love is worried
cuticles, scorched forearms
forcing a plastic lid cracked open,
to peel back foil of never sour enough mast,
tanged with thick prepped herbs that
radiate love, a worried radiation full
of sweet morsels to feed syrup down
your throat, raw short nails scoring
the plain of mars, kindling flames
humming glassy eyed, worry sheared razor thin,
roasted fat dripping hot, burning flesh,
wiping out wellbeing.
my mother’s love a sun small enough
to burn me, encompassing warmth,
coppered hot and floral, mint alighting
my tongue, irradiated comfort
fleeting against the bordered
creases in our eyes.
crawled from the belly of my
father, my mother too wounded
to carry me, a blazing sun crisping
me brown, leaving a parched shell
behind crumpled from intense radiation
blasting everything in its path.
mirror the way my love is worried,
care tossed in worry wrapped
around my figure, refreshed
to pink and blue plump little cakes
climbing to dream ourselves
wicked, benzos bitter on our tongues.
unease dissolving sharp and metallic,
worry burned brightly away under
a chemical blank, a challenge forgotten.
Written By: Dena Rod
About the Author: Dena Rod is the Assistant Creative Nonfiction Editor for Homology Lit. Through creative nonfiction essays and poetry, Dena aims to illuminate their diasporic experiences of Iranian American heritage and queer identity, combating negative stereotypes of their intersections in the media. Catch them on Twitter @alightningrod, denarod.com, & on tour with Sister Spit this upcoming spring.
Visual Art “Friend in Me” By: Eunbin Lee
About the Artist: I am a student studying photography from Korea. Living in a new culture and environment of the United States, I try to express through pictures what I felt based on various daily experiences. I feel a sense of freedom by expressing it through my photographs rather than words. I hope people can feel the feelings that I want to convey through my photos.